{"id":64821,"date":"2025-04-02T19:56:35","date_gmt":"2025-04-02T17:56:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/?p=64821"},"modified":"2025-04-03T03:32:46","modified_gmt":"2025-04-03T01:32:46","slug":"the-riddle-of-the-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/the-riddle-of-the-i\/","title":{"rendered":"The Riddle of the \u2018I’"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Many years ago, I read the following: \u201cThe \u2018I\u2019 receives its being and meaning from that with which it is connected.\u201d<\/strong><\/span>1<\/sup><\/a><\/span> It was like a bolt of lightning; I sat up at full attention. My previous understanding of the \u2018I\u2019 was totally shaken and set in motion. I realized that I\u2019d always thought of the \u2018I\u2019 as beginning in a center.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The \u2018I\u2019 as a center\u2014and from out of this center, we direct our view to the world; from out of this center, inner sensations of impressions are formed; and from out of this center come our feelings and will impulses. But, after reading this sentence, the center-point of the \u2018I\u2019 turned inside-out. I realized (and had some dream-like premonition of it) that the \u2018I\u2019 is not simply what I reflect within myself as my experience of the world\u2014my feelings, judgments, and memories. The \u2018I\u2019-experience is more than what I make of the world or how I shape my impressions. There\u2019s also a counter-movement: my \u2018I\u2019 receives its essence, its fundamental purpose and being, through everything I connect with. I can direct my attention away from perceiving my \u2018I\u2019 as the activity center and direct it towards the effects coming both from my own inner self and from the outer world. I can experience how my \u2018I\u2019 seems to emerge within me through my encounters with everything and, more so, how my \u2018I\u2019 is shaped and formed by these external influences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I begin to realize this, a new field of perception opens up. I direct my gaze to all that I\u2019m connected with and that I will connect with in the future. But what am I looking at? Everything that I encounter that rises up in my inner being colors my \u2018I,\u2019 so to speak, forming me and becoming part of my being. The question arises: What am I currently connected to? What is having an effect on my \u2018I\u2019-being? When I\u2019m able to pose this question, a wide spectrum comes into view\u2014my inner world and the outer world. Different bodily stimuli evoke feelings and behaviors; I meet people, objects, and processes in the world; the gentle light of dawn on first awaking, or a deep encounter with another human being\u2014a multifaceted world unfolds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then, I make a fundamental discovery: my thinking appears quite differently than my feelings and will impulses. Thinking stands available as a power that connects me both with the outer world and my own inner world, a power that unlocks my experiences. I find the power to expand my horizon, to grow beyond myself, to adopt other standpoints and viewpoints. Thinking gives me the power to step back, to pause and consider, or to step closer, to connect with something I recognize to be true. The power of thinking connecting me to the source of truth\u2014the realm of the spirit\u2014makes thinking a wholly unique instrument. Thinking is the mediator connecting me with all spheres of my being, and thus, it constitutes the primal activity of the \u2018I.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Context<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

In Theosophy<\/em>, the \u2018I\u2019 is introduced in the chapter \u201cThe Being of Man,\u201d section 4, \u201cBody, Soul, and Spirit,\u201d with the sentence: \u201cThe human being can only enlighten themself about themself in the right way when they clarify the significance of thinking within their being.\u201d<\/span>2<\/sup><\/a><\/span> Rudolf Steiner then explains how the brain is the bodily basis of thinking and how the entire human body is formed in such a way that it \u201cfinds its coronation in the brain.\u201d But he doesn\u2019t stop there; the function of the brain is to provide \u201cthe bodily basis for the thinking spirit.\u201d<\/span>3<\/sup><\/a><\/span> The brain is not the generator of thoughts or ideas but solely the bodily basis, the means upon which spiritual activity takes place.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

From there, he presents an articulated view of the \u201clife-filled form of the spirit\u201d:<\/span>4<\/sup><\/a><\/span> the sentient soul, the intellectual soul, and the consciousness soul. Along with this, the role of thinking in relation to the body, soul, and spirit is explored. In the description of the consciousness soul, Rudolf Steiner writes: \u201cThe human being rises above the mere sentient soul by allowing what is independently true and good to come to life within themselves. The eternal spirit shines into the soul. An imperishable light arises within it. As much as the soul lives in this light, so much does it partake in the eternal. The soul connects its existence with the eternal. What the soul carries within itself as true and good is that which is immortal within it. What shines forth in the soul as eternal is here called consciousness soul.\u201d<\/span>5<\/sup><\/a><\/span> This image of light\u2019s effects is essential. Light is the bridge from the temporal to the eternal. The third member of the soul, the consciousness soul, gives the possibility of expanding the soul from above, as it were, by way of the spirit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is followed by the section on the \u2018I,\u2019 described as the \u201ccenter of the soul.\u201d Rudolf Steiner introduces the \u2018I\u2019 by recounting a memory of the poet Jean Paul. Jean Paul described his first experience of realizing \u201cI am an I\u201d as a lightning bolt from heaven, and he reflects upon this with the words: \u201cMy \u2018I\u2019 had seen itself for the first time, and for all eternity.\u201d<\/span>6<\/sup><\/a><\/span> We can experience the \u2018I\u2019 in two ways: first, as an immediate inner experience, and second, as a process of self-perception that we only observe after the fact. During this process, knowledge and the object of knowledge are one. This is unique. Steiner continues: \u201cThe \u2018I\u2019 remains completely invisible as the actual essence of the human being. Jean Paul aptly calls the realization of the \u2018I\u2019 a \u2018prolapsed incident having occurred in the veiled sanctum of the human being.\u2019 For the human being is completely alone with their \u2018I.\u2019 And this<\/em> \u2018I\u2019 is<\/em> the human being themself. They are justified in regarding this \u2018I\u2019 as their true being.\u201d<\/span>7<\/sup><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Historical Setting<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Ever since his time in Vienna, Rudolf Steiner was friends with theosophists, such as Friedrich Eckstein and the circle around Marie Lang. However, he was still skeptical about theosophy and wrote several critical reviews and articles over the years.<\/span>8<\/sup><\/a><\/span> When he was invited to give a lecture at the Theosophical Library in Berlin commemorating the death of Friedrich Nietzsche, he noticed that the audience was actually quite interested in the spiritual world. This lecture led to another, where he spoke about Goethe’s \u201cFairy Tale.\u201d Soon afterward, he was asked to hold two cycles of lectures: \u201cMysticism at the Dawn of Modern Spiritual Life and Its Relationship to the Modern Worldview\u201d in 1901<\/span>9<\/sup><\/a><\/span> and, in 1902, \u201cChristianity as Mystical Fact and the Mysteries of Antiquity.\u201d<\/span>10<\/sup><\/a><\/span> Both cycles were published as books. Rudolf Steiner was then appointed General Secretary of the German section of the Theosophical Society in 1902. The presumption that Steiner drastically changed the direction of his life with these steps is based on a superficial understanding. In a letter from 1903, he wrote: \u201cI can only say to you: the same kind of experience that taught me the truth of science also taught me the mystical fact of Christianity. Whoever knows me well knows that I haven\u2019t changed much in my life.\u201d<\/span>11<\/sup><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Published in 1904, the work Theosophy: An Introduction to Suprasensible Knowledge of the World and the Vocation of Man<\/em> is a first systematic consideration of the being of man in his physical, soul, and spiritual being, and the three worlds that underlie these layers of being. This book connects directly with the Philosophy of Freedom<\/em>. His presentation refers to Goethe and Fichte and is methodologically based on German idealism. In the first edition, he still uses theosophical terminology, but in subsequent editions, he more and more withdraws these terms and favors an independent presentation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Event<\/h4>\n\n\n\n

Rudolf Steiner lesen und verstehen<\/strong> [Reading and understanding Rudolf Steiner]: Conference of the Section for the Literary Arts and Humanities at the Goetheanum, May 1\u20134, 2025, with Andre Bartoniczek, Anna-Katharina Dehmelt, Ariane Eichenberg, Volker Frankfurt, Eckart F\u00f6rster, Christiane Haid, Jaap Sijmons, and Renatus Ziegler.
More<\/strong> Section for the Literary Arts and Humanities<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Translation <\/strong>Joshua Kelberman<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Many years ago, I read the following: \u201cThe \u2018I\u2019 receives its being and meaning from that with which it is connected.\u201d It was like a bolt of lightning; I sat up at full attention. My previous understanding of the \u2018I\u2019 was totally shaken and set in motion. I realized that I\u2019d always thought of the \u2018I\u2019 as beginning in a center. The \u2018I\u2019 as a center\u2014and from out of this center, we direct our view to the world; from out […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9277,"featured_media":64112,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8788,9183,8848],"tags":[11637,8798,11638],"class_list":["post-64821","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-essay-en","category-general-anthroposophy","category-literature","tag-ausgabe-11-2025-en","tag-deepening","tag-english-issue-14-2025"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/64821","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/9277"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=64821"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/64821\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/64112"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=64821"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=64821"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dasgoetheanum.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=64821"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}